It's been a hard couple of weeks.
I've been learning that seeking peace and approval are not one in the same —and it's a hard lesson.
So this evening, I went for a walk at one of my favorite places in Louisville —the Crescent Hill Reservoir. I used to walk here every day back when we lived only a few blocks away. We now live across the city from this lovely oasis, so I don't take my usual strolls as frequently as I'd like.
But I had a little time today, and I was in the area.
The thing is, I didn't realize how much I needed it. How badly my heart needed to simply be silent and make space for the Holy Spirit to speak.
That's what I've missed about this place. It reminded me of my old routine:
Walk with Jesus, letting Him speak through the sunrise and lovely waters.
Go back home and write whatever He told my heart that day.
So this awakened something in me, like the smell of Christmas cookies or a sandy beach after a time of waiting and longing for something you didn't know you missed.
I felt the presence of the Lord telling me to listen because He had something to say.
As I walked, the Lord asked my heart these questions:
"What would happen if it was enough?
If you didn't need your family or friends to love you to be at peace?
If you didn't need to be approved of or affirmed by anyone?
What if you didn't need the readers of your blog to react or be impressed in order to call yourself a writer?
What would happen if it were all enough as it already is?
What would happen if your worth was found in Who I Am?
You would have nothing to take from anyone. No expectations at all.
When you realize that you don't need anyone's approval to be who you already are, then you are free to love them and bless them with what you already have.
You're able to give freely from the endless supply of My Love for you.
It is always enough for you and available to you, my Jeana."
Enough to overflow the cups of our lives.
To wake up and taste it and crave nothing more the endless supply of the love we already own.
What a Good Father we have.
So here's a question for your heart today: